Monday, June 28, 2010

Antsy Pants

I'm a little all over the place today...

I've started packing up my apartment, and this has caused my living space to become somewhat messy. Ok a LOT messy... There are boxes and knickknacks and papers and pictures all over the place, and I think that is causing me to feel even more scatterbrained than I already am. All I can think about is packing and organizing and purging myself of clutter.

[And--for the record--I now have the hiccups. grrr]
I'm on my third-to-last day at the station, which is also probably contributing to all-over-the-place-ness. Today they brought in a candidate to replace me, which was kind of weird. I mean obviously they need someone, and I'm not really upset about it...It's just kind of strange to be around when they're doing it I guess. 
I think I'm just getting really antsy.
I'm antsy about finding a job in Memphis, and I still haven't heard back from my lead. I'm trying to keep my head up about it, though, because if it's meant to be then it will happen, and if not, well it must not be right for me right now, and I'll figure something else out. 
[this is much easier said than done, obviously...]
I'm antsy about getting my apartment packed up. I came back from Memphis on Saturday night to find that my roommate had already moved out a bunch of her stuff. Again-knew that she needed to move it out, but I guess I just didn't expect it all to be gone when I walked in. It just makes me want to get my stuff packed up and organized all the more quickly.

In a sense, it's all a little sad. Not only is it really hitting me now that I'm done with college, since I'm leaving my college town, but I mean- I'm moving back home, and everyone else is moving on from, well, me. Ok, ok that sounds morbid haha. But it's kind of true! And that makes me antsy to move on myself, get the ball rolling on something different, get settled in my new life.
This is not to say that I won't miss parts of my life here a WHOLE lot, because I most certainly will [I can't even begin to get into that today ha]. It's just that, since the decision is made, I'm just ready to move on from everything. Patience has never been my forte ha.

Yours, truly

1 comment:

  1. I felt the same way when I was moving out, and the time spent getting closer to the move out day. I just wanted to START my NEW chapter, but I didn't necessarily want my old chapter to END. It's such a weird time!
    It still hasn't hit me that I won't be coming back to Knoxville in August. When I came up this weekend everything was so normal (besides not being able to see you! boo.), but it was so hard to believe that I didn't live there, wake up there, get dressed there, work there, have a residence there, etc.
    UGH. so weeeeirddd.